You can sit there for hours, pouring out your heart, showing how much someone means to you, but it doesn’t mean as much, not when your boyfriend is lying on your bed, tears falling down his eyes as you wait for the paramedics. He lays there, hopeless, holding my hand and his chest not being able to breathe, but using his last breath to tell you he loves you. That you mean the world to him. That you are the one he wants to marry, he doesn’t want to lose you but he knows he’s going to die. Thats the moment everything that was ever said pieces together, it all means the world, you sit there with tears streaming your face, trying to calm him down and thinking about what could happen, was has happened. suddenly all those bad times, those arguments-they all go, there forgotten in an instant because really, when two people love each other, you can get through anything. But seeing the fear in his eyes hits you. It crushes you slow and deep till even you think it isn’t possible, how could you face the fact you could just about to lose someone you love in you arms. Never see them again? Never hear their voice whisper in your ear softly that they adore you. He’s slipping now, slowly giving up, seeing no point in fighting, he’s going without a fight and you can’t do anything about it. Your life just collapses.
 Hand on heart, I have never experienced something so destroying in my whole life, I have never been so scared to lose someone. I consider myself lucky that he made it, I’m lucky to have my boyfriend by my side alive, breathing and holding my hand. No-one should ever have to go through anything like this, it tares you apart. 

When things like this happen, you realise how much someone means to you, you love them till the end, you stick by them. My boyfriend means the world to me. I’m going to cherish every moment as though its our last.